But I am resolved to stop looking, and let the Lord guide him to me.
Everyone who is married tells me to relish this time alone, that it is an awesome ordained time. And I do agree, I love the freedom I have. I can choose where I want to go, what I want to do, and all that is holding me back is my lack of finances. I love this freedom! When will I ever have this again?
But I really hate the loneliness.
So if that would just go away I would be just peachy.
I wish I could get that feeling back of the Lord being my all and all, my Love and my life. Yet I feel so distant!
Lord please take back what part of my heart I hold from You! Cause me to hear of Your lovingkindness and tenderness. I know you love me more that I will ever know, teach me to know that Your love is enough. That it is more than enough, that is extravagant.
Thank you Jesus!