Tuesday, June 17, 2008

I need to stop!

Looking! I always look for who could be husband, I am just so tired of waiting and being lonely.
But I am resolved to stop looking, and let the Lord guide him to me. 
Everyone who is married tells me to relish this time alone, that it is an awesome ordained time. And I do agree, I love the freedom I have. I can choose where I want to go, what I want to do, and all that is holding me back is my lack of finances. I love this freedom! When will I ever have this again?
But I really hate the loneliness.
So if that would just go away I would be just peachy.
I wish I could get that feeling back of the Lord being my all and all, my Love and my life. Yet I feel so distant! 
Lord please take back what part of my heart I hold from You! Cause me to hear of Your lovingkindness and tenderness. I know you love me more that I will ever know, teach me to know that Your love is enough. That it is more than enough, that is extravagant. 
Thank you Jesus!

4 comments:

Malia Marie said...

if God can give you a car...then God can give you a man...Lord knows cars don't aggravate us nearly as much as men do at times...

Melody said...

Oh Malia I love you! lol you are so right! I never really thought of it that way...

E. Chikeles said...

If I was unmarried, having the experience of marriage already, I would be lonely. I don't think I could learn to relish the time without my husband...
But, you can be just as lonely when you are married... somewhere and somehow you just have to learn what you are learning. =)
We need to hang sometime.

Malia Marie said...

lol...i love you too!...

men dooo have their benefits...after all...cars can't give us children...cars can't give us flowers...cars require gas...then again, men produce mass quantities of gas...i guess it's a toss up...lol