Monday, October 27, 2008
Yet another amazing let down. I don't know why but sometimes I torture myself and go back and read that stupid paragraph in chapter 2 part 242.9 of AR 40-501 which is the Army Regulation entrance manual. It says that current or history of hyperthyroidism is DQing. Ugh! You have no idea how this upsets me! I just want to cry because I haven't quite figured out how to explain how badly I want to be in the Army, and so I don't think anyone can really understand how I feel. Yeah, maybe you do I'm not throwing the whole I'm alone in the world pity party, but it sucks.
Yeah, leave a comment that tells me to get over it. Fine its not like I haven't tried over the past 4.5 years since I first got rejected. Why did I have to be the kid with the stupid friggen thyroid disorder???? It just makes me mad because it makes no sense. I had to be the stupid sick one, and than the one who desperately wanted what I can't have. I get to dress up in my pitiful little CAP uniform every week and play military for awhile when I know I'm not making a difference worth squat. I am just playing it because it is as close as I will ever get. Well I'm sick of this stupid nonsense.
So yeah, I think I will never get over it. I will be a friggen civilian POG the rest of my life and there is nothing I can do about it.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
They seem to turn up whenever I need them the least. Like the week Michael asked me out a guy who I had a crush on all through high school and who is four years older than me asked me out. I spent so long dreaming about this guy and he doesn't consider me until I am taken? Huh.
Also, ex boyfriends make life a pill. Why is it people want you the most when you are off limits?
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
I love the feedback from the last blog, it has been more in person feedback as I only have one comment on there. I guess it ruffles some feathers, but I like that.
Also, I think that Paul Washer is a man who loves God, but I believe much of what he preaches is wrong. That is my final word, and that is my opinion.