I don't think I could stand ever losing him. I know I probably shouldn't think about it, but thinking about losing him is what made me realize I loved him. He got into a horrible 65 mph head on crash last June and I remember the minute I found out about it I knew I loved him because the thought of never being able to see him again made me stop. Just stop, I don't know what stopped but I think everything. Like I woke up all of a sudden and knew I had to be with him.
And now I fear losing him. I pray that the Lord would help me get over the fear of losing him. That I wouldn't be worried all the time and that I would hold Michael as a gift the Lord gave to me and know that the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, blessed be His name either way. But still...I don't want him hurt. I don't want him gone. I want him safe and here with me.
In case your reading this Michael, I love you more than I could ever express :)