It can get you down sometimes you know?
I suppose that I will always be reminding myself that God is in control, He knows what He is doing and I do not.
See at one time I thought that I would be happy forever if God would just give me a horse.
Then he did.
Then it was a car, a boyfriend, money, and stupid superficial things like that.
Now I know I can be JOYFUL (maybe not always happy though) forever because my Lord has given me salvation.
I wish though that I could feel that amazing love like I did last month. I mean, I was so gone. And so blessed. Now the world is just crashing in and I am feeling it a lot. Its hard.
Paying for college, worrying about bills, relationships, longing for relationships, friends, family, heartache, lack of coffee, feeling fat and ugly.
But then I could be: starving, dying, have AIDS, have some dangerous communicable disease, be dying of water pollution, have the black plague, be freezing to death...wow. I could be living in a shack in Indonesia living off of rice an larvae.
But thankfully I'm not.
WOW Jesus has provided so much for me!