I am sick of hoping for love and only getting heartbreak when I realize no one loves me like that who I can truthfully love back. And I am sick of men falling in love with me when I know I could never love them the way they would want me too.
AH. Lets just say I am sick of it all...
I wish I could live in the solace of my guitar. I wish I could always sleep on the rooftop where all I see is stars, I wish I had someone, I wish I had best friends like I did when I was little and we could giggle all night long about nothing and be happy, I wish relationships didn't change.
And I wish people didn't die.
Or lie to me when they say they would change and then they don't when I have put so much hope in them.
I feel like King David, lamenting over all the things in my life that bring me sorrow...focus Melody focus! Jesus, the one you claim to love is here. He is catching your tears and holding you close when sobs rack your heart! He is telling you not to worry and to focus! To focus on eternity!
Oh my soul be still...or else you will go insane.